Signs and Symptoms of a mid life crisis

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I think, at the grand old age of 23, I am having a mid life crisis. I just feel so completely and utterly disappointed with life. This is not what I imagined being a 'grown up' would be like!

I like my job, and I have a great relationship as well as great parents, so technically I don't have a leg to stand on. I just feel so down that this is all life will ever be for me. I'm a great believer in making your own fate, and in the past year I've completely changed career paths so I'm a lot happier in my job, but it's just the situation of work that gets me down. I know I risk sounding like a spoilt brat but it's so disheartening that we're all stuck in this cycle of work, eat, sleep (unless you're very privileged and lucky enough not to have to do so.) I find it very hard to get that work/life balance as I need to work long hours to be able to get as much money as possible to cover my bills, which leaves me with hardly any time to spend with loved ones and unwind. And when I do get time in the evenings, I spend it watching dreary TV until bedtime because a) Jody doesn't really do much else as she prefers spending her evenings chilling out, and b) it's the only time I get to spend with Jody so I'd rather be watching crap soaps with her than upstairs reading alone. Plus I have neither the money nor the friends to go out and do anything else. And when I do make plans, I feel too anxious to follow through with them and end up cancelling in panic.
Having had a full time job since I was 16, and my own house since I was 17, I've never had that period of youth where you just go out and experience things without worrying about responsibilities. I've never gone to University, or gone travelling, or gone out every weekend with my friends, or had the luxury of spending an entire wage packet on one frivolous item. I feel like I wanted to grow up too fast, and now that I am grown up, I spend all my time wishing that I could be a kid again.
But I'm only getting older, and the chance for me to have a second youth is getting slimmer and slimmer by the day. This is it, and this is likely all it's ever going to be. Work until you're too old to work any more and you're too old or ill to enjoy the time to yourself. Then you're gone! The stark realisation of 'the circle of life' is, quite frankly, shit.

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