Jealousy in relationships: How much is too much?

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I think jealousy is an interesting topic. Some people are naturally jealous, while others are not. It's natural for certain people or situations to bring out or heighten the green eyed monster lurking inside us but when it comes to relationships, how much is too much?

I used to pride myself on being perfect girlfriend material, never batting an eyelid when my partner went on nights out or weekends away with her friends and never caring if I knew someone was attracted to her. Jealousy just wasn't a part of my nature. I obviously had my moments throughout the six years we were together but on the whole, I wasn't bothered in the slightest what she got up to.
Now I am in a new relationship and everything I thought I knew about myself has been turned on it's head. The dickhead green eyed monster has me firmly in his clutches and the more I try to wriggle myself free, the tighter he is gripping. 
I don't know whether it's because it's still a pretty new relationship, or whether it's because I've never felt this way about anyone else, or because I've never been this physically attracted to anyone before and therefore feel slightly inadequate in comparison, but something has happened inside my brain and left my girlfriend of only 5 months thinking I am a serial bunny boiler.

Luckily, we've actually known each other for 6 years so I'm comforted somewhat by the thought that she knows what I am really like. Don't get me wrong, I don't check her phone or tell her what to wear or go all Patrick-from-Hollyoaks on her if she makes my cup of tea wrong or anything like that. It's not a controlling jealousy, but more an insecure jealousy on my part. Because I think she is the most amazing woman I have ever met, I worry that I am not enough to keep her and so my stupid hormonal brain starts working overtime, convincing me that anyone she has a crush on is the enemy and needs to be taken out. I mean, it's so bad that I can't even watch a film starring her man crush Tom Cruise, which is really annoying because I used to love the naughty bits in Eyes Wide Shut. When I think about it logically, I know I am being irrational:

1) He lives in the telly box and will never ever grace my girlfriend with his presence.
2) He's a man and she's a lesbian, and although for some reason he makes her go weak at the knees when he's at a safe distance in his Top Gun uniform, if he actually came near her saying he wants to put his willy inside of her, she'd run a mile. I hope.
3) It is completely normal and natural for people to have crushes on celebrities and doesn't mean she is any less attracted to me.

Deep down I know all of these things, and yet the thought of her being turned on by anyone else eats away at me. I want to be the only person she thinks naughty thoughts about. Is that irrational and weird on my part, or do other people feel like this? Is it normal for someone to want to smash a hole in the TV screen with the remote and then unsubscribe from Netflix when their girlfriend makes little 'oof' noises when Carmen from the L Word comes on? (Asking for a friend).

They say a little bit of jealousy in a relationship is healthy and proves that you actually care about the other person. If the shoe were on the other foot, I would worry more if my girlfriend didn't seem to care about me than if she got a little bit jealous over me watching Rachel Weisz films, because I like to know that I am needed. But I also know that other people are not as needy as me and jealousy can be a real turn off. So, when it comes to jealousy in relationships, how much is too much?

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